Kevin's blog: Week eight
First we lose Lisa and now I've been dealt a body blow - Michaela's gone. I seem to have found my niche in the house as the person people talk to when they need their heads are not right... But who sorts my head out now Michaela's gone? Michaela - you don't know how important you've been to us and me in particular. You need to realise how wonderful you are.
Carol said to me that I should be a writer - I think she was just trying to get on my good side! I actually feel a bit cheated - Carol keeps on saying to me and Maria that we should see the Black and Blue teams as one big team. Er, so all of a sudden she doesn't like the whole team divide! It would be a massively different story if Katey and Jamie had gone home instead of Lisa and Michaela! I hope this week is judged on merit and not purely on who votes for who.
This week felt like, in Angie's words, balls to the wall time. The experience in here seems to get more and more mental. Not crazy, but more about learning how to focus the mind and let go of your feelings... Luke. Didn't I say Richard is a real-life Jedi master? George Lucas nailed it big time. It is a hidden inner force that you have to find and channel before you can prevail. I believe I found this a few weeks ago.
I am going to miss this place... All of this. I like the order of things and it's strange to think the world is going by without us in it. Answering the question: "Do you want to win The Biggest Loser?" is the hardest of them all. Honest. It makes me feel embarrassed like I'm just here for the money. I feel like I have already won, I feel fitter than I ever have and I know this new-found fitness has increased my chances of living longer. My mind is strong and ready for the outside world.
I have had a lot to talk about and I hope you finally get me! I wonder how people just getting out of prison must feel in the days leading up to their release. Are they glad to get home or will they miss the routine they have got used to? I'm not saying the house is like a prison but being away from the ones you love for so long does hurt. Actually, I'm not worried at all. Sue and my son are waiting for me and that's all that matters. In fact, it feels like Christmas!
