Missing Ben Needham's mum Kerry: 'In the back of our minds we know that he has died but it’s very difficult to accept'
BEN NEEDHAM'S MUM KERRY OPENS UP ABOUT HER SON WHO WENT MISSING 27 YEARS AGO: 'IT'S VERY DIFFICULT TO ACCEPT HE HAS DIED - WE HAVE NO CONCRETE PROOF'
In an emotional interview, Kerry bravely opened up about the disappearance of her son Ben Needham 27 years ago, saying it’s very difficult to accept he has died because there’s no concrete proof.
'We’re still in limbo. In my mind, Ben is still a missing person,' Kerry explained. 'Apart from the [toy] car that we know belonged to Ben and the piece of sandal… we don’t know if that is Ben’s, we don’t know if that is Ben’s blood on there. In our minds it’s very difficult to accept that he has died. We believe what the police have told us obviously. But, it’s very difficult for us to accept that because we have no concrete proof.'
'I think in the back of our minds we know that he has died, but we will never be able to move on from that, he will always be a missing person'
Twenty-seven years after he disappeared on his grandparents' property on the island of Kos in Greece, the family still hold onto the hope Ben will be found alive.
'[You] hope that he’s going to come back into our lives. You live like that, that’s what drives you on,' Kerry said. 'Still even now we still have people message us – they think they are Ben. They send their Facebook pictures and things like that. I don’t personally have any contact with them. It’s a bit too personal. My friends who help me with the social media, they talk to them, find little bits of information. It is difficult. I do feel bad for these people. Somewhere, they’re lost somewhere in their life. They probably don’t know they’re doing any damage to me or my family.'
Little Ben was just 21 months old and being looked after by Kerry's mum Christine on the day he disappeared. And Kerry revealed her parents carry guilt with them to this day.
'I see my mum struggle, I do,' Kerry said. 'I want her to know, [speaking directly to camera] I want you mum to know that it’s not your fault. I don’t blame her. I don’t. Yeah, she does [still blame herself].
'Because Ben was with my mum that day, I think my mum and dad have lived through the hope of finding Ben and bringing him home to me and that would make it alright, and we haven’t got that.'
'She is strong,' Kerry added. '[Speaking directly to camera] And I want to ease your pain mum and stop feeling guilty and then you might be able to move on with your life a little bit more.'
Kerry also admitted she's not had counselling saying, 'I’m not ready. My mum has had counselling. I don’t think I’m strong enough to release all that emotion right now. I think I’d rather keep the anger and the fight in me rather than talk about it too much.'
On more money being allocated in the search for Madeleine McCann, Kerry said: 'It hurts, it hurts us and it hurts me as Ben’s mum. I’m not taking anything away from it all. She deserves to be found, but so does Ben. We have not had a fraction of that help. I’ve had to fight alone, you know, as a single mum and try to get the help that Ben deserves and that we deserve as a family. It did happen in the end but not to the magnitude that that case has had. Which is unfortunate and very, very sad for us. I’ll still keep going. I’ll still do the media interviews. Ben’s name still needs to be out there, while he’s still missing.'
Talking of all the children that go missing every year, Kerry said, 'They still deserve to be found and that’s how I feel. I don’t take anything away from anyone else that has got a loved one that’s missing. Every person needs to be found. Resources must be put into this. It is unfair, I don’t take it that I’m the only one in the world that feels like this every day waking up without your child. It’s horrendous for every parent.'