A nurse who started having cannibal fantasies as a child planned to behead and eat a girl he believed to be 14, a court has heard.
Dale Bolinger, 57, is charged with one count of attempting to meet a child under the age of 16 following sexual grooming.
He is accused of using an online forum to discuss beheading and eating women and girls for sexual gratification.
Canterbury Crown Court previously heard how on September 17, 2012, the day before he was due to meet his alleged victim, Bolinger bought an axe and told the girl that all she needed to do was get on a train, the court heard.
The chats were discovered by the FBI which was investigating internet chats about the killing and cannibalism of women.
The account was traced to Bolinger, formerly of Canterbury, Kent, and he was arrested in February last year.
Today, the court heard how Bolinger, married with one son, started having cannibalism fantasies when he was a child.
When he was first arrested Bolinger told police that when he was six-years-old he had fantasies about staff at a kindergarten - taking some of the girls to the kitchen to eat them - the court heard.
Today, reading Bolinger's police interview to the court, prosecutor Martin Yale said: "By the time I got to 14, I turned into the villain of the piece and I wondered what it would be like to eat a girl."
Bolinger told the court he had visited the Dark Fetish Network (DFN) website out of curiosity and that the people he spoke to seemed to be "willing to accept anything".
He claimed he would say things to try to shock to people online to the point where they said 'surely this is fantasy?', the court heard.
Mr Yale said Bolinger described his cannibalism fantasy as "Jekyll and Hyde" but not something he could fulfil as he would never harm anyone.
He added: "At no time have I ever killed, kidnapped, taken or eaten a person."
He blamed his "very domineering" mother for his behaviour which he described as "weird" and "very strange", the jury was told.
Bolinger said in interview: "I think it was more to do with disliking my mother more than hating women."
Bolinger denies the charges. The trial was adjourned until 10am on Friday when the accused will be cross-examined by the prosecution.