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"The scars from this will last a lifetime": Victim releases personal statement after abuser jailed

One of the six girls abused by teacher Glyn Jones, who was jailed for five years at Norwich Crown Court after admitting seven counts of indecent assault, has released her victim personal statement in full, revealing she has regular counselling sessions to deal with the damage he did to her.

There has not been one day, since first disclosing the abuse to the police two-and-a-half years ago, where I haven't thought about Glyn Jones and what he did to me.

It's incredible how someone you haven't seen - or had any contact with - in more than 20 years can have such an effect on your life.

When I was 13 and 14 years old, I saw him as someone who was there to protect and educate me. He made me feel safe and secure.

But what I didn't realise at the time was that he was actually grooming me.

Grooming me until that point where he had enough control to make his move.

The realisation that I was a victim of child abuse was crippling.

At the time I didn't see it as abuse and I didn't feel what was happening to me was wrong or hurtful. Yet more than two decades later I suddenly found myself feeling that abuse, feeling the betrayal and pain and worst of all- feeling the humiliation and shame that Glyn Jones has gifted me.

As an adult I have tortured myself as to why I didn't see it at the time.

I was a bright young girl - how could I not see what he was doing to me?

I torture myself daily with questions such as - Why me? Did I do something wrong? Did I bring this on myself? Was it my fault? What made me the perfect victim?

But I was just a child. A young girl who trusted someone - someone who was in a position of trust - who used that position to manipulate me and make me his sexual fantasy.

I feel sick and dirty at the thought of that.

I look back at my childhood and question the person I thought I was.

I question whether the choices I have made since in life are because of the

abuse and the need to make things feel normal again.

It took many years for me to find the confidence to tell the police what happened and for me this is not just about justice - this is about me being able to finally say that I may have accepted the abuse at 14 years old.I may not have realised how wrong it was then. But it's not OK and I want Glyn Jones to know that I know what he did to me is wrong and I do not accept it.

There are certain songs I cannot hear on the radio without making me want to be sick.

I have suffered with anxiety and depression periodically, leading to me to being diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder.

I have had to have time off work as a result and I have been prescribed antidepressants.

I have also been attending regular counselling sessions in order to try and unravel the web of confusion this ordeal has left me with.

By not entering a guilty plea at the earliest opportunity, Glyn Jones has effectively continued that abuse - adding to my distress.

While I know that finally telling the police was the right thing to do, it has been an extremely distressing experience which has been drawn out over a longer period of time than has been necessary.

I am fortunate that I have an extremely supportive husband and family; however, it has been very upsetting for them to see me trying to cope with the ramifications.

I want to thank the police team for believing me and pursuing the investigation.

When I first gave my statement, I knew I was going to open up an old wound but I did not realise how painful it would be - and while I know in time those wounds will heal, the scars from this will last my lifetime.

– Abuse victim.