Jury at inquest into death of Jacob Michael in custody will view CCTV from the family home before his arrest.
His mother says she'll never watch it.
About refusing to watch the footage, Christine Michael said:
"It hurts too much. I'd rather remember him as he was. It was my last memory of him."
The jury were shown CCTV footage from the police van which took Mr Michael to the custody suite.
The inquest heard recordings of repeated cries of "I'm sorry" followed by orders for Mr Michael to "shut up" and "stand up" as officers put him in the vehicle.
During the six minute journey Mr Micheal could be heard repeating the word "Please".
On arrival, an officer told him "stand up mate. I'm not carrying you."
The court could hear groans as mr Michael was lead away.
The hearing continues.