Being a military wife you know that knock on the door is a possibility but you never think it will be you. When the knock came I collapsed for I was told that my husband wasn't dead or injured but missing.
My head couldn't understand what they meant. For the last 5 months I have been unable to give up hope, unable to move forward, unable to grieve and constantly dreading the fact that the knock on the door might or might not ever come again.
So, today is so important to all of Timmy's family because we want his face to be seen by everybody in the hope they may remember something.
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