Paul Gascoigne has described "the pain" of knowing he might start drinking again, even though he recognises it could be the death of him.
A one-off ITV documentary about the former England footballer reveals what happened in Gazza's private life for the three months after his return from a rehab clinic in Arizona where he overheard doctors say he might die.
The 46-year-old told filmmakers: "I just remember one bit after the third day of being in hospital when he said 'I don't think this guy is going to make it' and I sort of put my head up a little bit and I was like, tubes in my arms and an oxygen tank injecting round my heart and lungs and that.
"I just come forward and I went 'I don't want to die I need to water the plants' and that was it and then I woke up two weeks later."
Being Paul Gascoigne will air on ITV tomorrow at 9pm
England's translator Giacomo Malvermi was handed the number 19 shirt by the midfielder after a 1-1 draw with Tunisia in June 1990.
Malvermi, who has donated the shirt to the Sir Bobby's Breakthrough Online Charity Auction, said: "Sir Bobby was a great man and a gentleman of the football world.
"During my time as his translator at Italia '90 I was inspired and overwhelmed by his passion, kindness and above all his great humanity and empathy."
The online auction, which hopes to raise £1 million, will take place next month and will fund cancer research in the North East, Breakthrough Breast Cancer and cancer services at two Suffolk Hospitals.
Football star Paul Gascoigne has admitted common assault and drunk and disorderly charges linked to an incident at a railway station.Read the full story ›
Paul Gascoigne's solicitor Gavin Harris said the former footballer wanted privacy so he could continue with his treatment against alcohol addiction.
The former England midfielder also wanted to publicly apologise for his actions.
Paul Gascoigne will have to pay a total of £1,245 for his drunken assault at a railway station on July 4.
He will pay:
- The former footballer was fined £600 for one charge of assault.
- He will also pay £400 for a drunk and disorderly charge.
- Gascoigne was ordered to pay £100 in compensation to ticket collector Jack Sherrington, who he assaulted.
- The 46-year-old will pay court costs of £85 and a victim surcharge of £60.
Former England soccer star Paul Gascoigne has been fined £1,000 after he admitted common assault and drunk and disorderly charges linked to an incident at Stevenage rail station when he appeared at Stevenage Magistrates Court today.
Paul Gascoigne admitted assault and drunk and disorderly charges related to an incident at Stevenage railway station.
The former footballer, 46, who received treatment for alcoholism in an American clinic earlier this year, was originally charged with two counts of assault, one involving his ex-wife Sheryl, but that charge was dropped.
The former Newcastle United and Tottenham midfielder, who lives in Gateshead, was arrested after officers were called to Stevenage rail station in Hertfordshire at around 10.30pm July 4.
Former England footballer Paul Gascoigne admitted common assault and drunk and disorderly charges linked to an incident at a railway station when he appeared at Stevenage Magistrates Court.
Former England footballer Paul Gascoigne is to appear in court today to face two counts of common assault and one count of drunk and disorderly following an incident at Stevenage railway station on July 4.
The 46-year-old, who received treatment for alcoholism in an American clinic earlier this year, will appear before magistrates in Stevenage.
Gascoigne, who received treatment for alcoholism in an American clinic earlier this year, has been bailed to appear before magistrates in Stevenage on August 5.