Paul Gascoigne said he hopes he will not drink again, but added, "If it does [happen again] I'm really sorry, I'm an alcoholic".
In the documentary Being Paul Gascoigne, Gazza says: "I'll keep ontrying, I'll try my best until I actually can get this".
"Until then I really don't know if I can ... I really don't know."
Being Paul Gascoigne will be shown on ITV tomorrow night at 9pm
Paul Gascoigne said he hopes he does not die from his alcohol addiction as he has already been "lucky twice".
Gazza told documentary makers: "I hope I don't die through it. Because I won't get any sympathy ... because well he was warned. At least I know if I did pass away through it I wouldn't be in this pain all the time.
"The pain's like I know probably in the future I am going to drink again. I know in a year's time I am going to have f****** hassle again and you know family worrying and Sheryl worried, the kids worried, nephews worried, friends are worried.
"I just think sometimes, just think f****** hell. Just go away i.e. drink or me go away - and that means a wooden box and six nails ... and I don't know why, I just don't know why I f****** pick up the drink."
Being Paul Gascoigne airs on ITV tomorrow night at 9pm
Paul Gascoigne has revealed he spends £1,000 a year on anti-wrinkle jabs to counteract the ravages of his drinking over the years.
In the documentary Being Paul Gascoigne, to be shown on ITV tomorrow at 9pm, Gazza also opens up about spending around £60,000 on "James Bond" gadgets, which he says can spot if he is being filmed by hidden cameras.
Former England footballer Paul Gascoigne told the makers of a new ITV documentary that he has "an addictive personality" and revealed he is even addicted to sweets.
He told them: "With me now if I did have a drink and relapse, it's like becoming tipsy and merry is okay for a couple of days but like the next mouthful I'm so down, I'm so depressed, I cry.
"I do all that because I know inside I'm hurting myself again. I know where I'm heading, a wooden box. Or I'm back in treatment or hospital. Or getting sectioned."
Paul Gascoigne has described "the pain" of knowing he might start drinking again, even though he recognises it could be the death of him.
A one-off ITV documentary about the former England footballer reveals what happened in Gazza's private life for the three months after his return from a rehab clinic in Arizona where he overheard doctors say he might die.
The 46-year-old told filmmakers: "I just remember one bit after the third day of being in hospital when he said 'I don't think this guy is going to make it' and I sort of put my head up a little bit and I was like, tubes in my arms and an oxygen tank injecting round my heart and lungs and that.
"I just come forward and I went 'I don't want to die I need to water the plants' and that was it and then I woke up two weeks later."
Being Paul Gascoigne will air on ITV tomorrow at 9pm
England's translator Giacomo Malvermi was handed the number 19 shirt by the midfielder after a 1-1 draw with Tunisia in June 1990.
Malvermi, who has donated the shirt to the Sir Bobby's Breakthrough Online Charity Auction, said: "Sir Bobby was a great man and a gentleman of the football world.
"During my time as his translator at Italia '90 I was inspired and overwhelmed by his passion, kindness and above all his great humanity and empathy."
The online auction, which hopes to raise £1 million, will take place next month and will fund cancer research in the North East, Breakthrough Breast Cancer and cancer services at two Suffolk Hospitals.
Football star Paul Gascoigne has admitted common assault and drunk and disorderly charges linked to an incident at a railway station.Read the full story ›
Paul Gascoigne's solicitor Gavin Harris said the former footballer wanted privacy so he could continue with his treatment against alcohol addiction.
The former England midfielder also wanted to publicly apologise for his actions.
Paul Gascoigne will have to pay a total of £1,245 for his drunken assault at a railway station on July 4.
He will pay:
- The former footballer was fined £600 for one charge of assault.
- He will also pay £400 for a drunk and disorderly charge.
- Gascoigne was ordered to pay £100 in compensation to ticket collector Jack Sherrington, who he assaulted.
- The 46-year-old will pay court costs of £85 and a victim surcharge of £60.
Former England soccer star Paul Gascoigne has been fined £1,000 after he admitted common assault and drunk and disorderly charges linked to an incident at Stevenage rail station when he appeared at Stevenage Magistrates Court today.