Mairead Philpott is telling the court that she tried to take her own life after her husband's girlfriend, Lisa Willis, left the family home.
"I thought if I was gone then everybody else would be happy," she said.
She also confirmed that she wrote the suicide notes and that they reflected what she was thinking at the time, but denied that she would contemplate killing her children at the same time as herself.
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