The internet history from a mother who admitted to killing her three-year-old son showed searches including "I find it hard to love my son", "Why am I so aggressive with my son" and "Get rid of bruises," a court heard.
Using her phone, Rosdeep Adekoya also looked up, "I love all of my children except one," shortly before she battered Mikaeel Kular to death, the High Court in Edinburgh heard.
Adekoya, 34, pled guilty to culpable homicide.
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The Home Office made the arrests at various restaurants across London on July 4.