Craig Bellamy has revealed he is going through the "worst time in his life" following the death of his close friend and former Wales manager Gary Speed last year.
Speed was found hanged at his home last November at the age of 42 and Bellamy, who played alongside the midfielder for Newcastle and Wales, admits it has "affected everything", including his marriage.
The former Liverpool and Manchester City striker, 33, told the Sunday Mirror he has moved out of the marital home he shared with wife Claire and their three children.
He said: "Losing my best mate has affected everything. I can't believe how hard it is.
"He was the best mate I've ever had. It's sad but unfortunately it got to my marriage. I'm here and she's there.
"I don't know if that's it for us. All I know is that my best mate has gone. I'm struggling. I can't lie."
Bellamy said of his family situation: "I can't tell you how hard it is. It's the worst time in my life ever."
Bellamy, who was part of the Great Britain squad at this summer's Olympics, last month joined Cardiff on a two-year deal from Liverpool and played in their opening two npower Championship matches before being sidelined with a calf injury.
Cardiff recently rejected reports he was considering retirement.