Two decades after her son's terrible murder, Denise Fergus speaks about those stolen years and why every time she makes a positive step forward, something brings her down again.
Tomorrow marks the 20th anniversary of one of the most shocking crimes in British History. On the 12th February 1993, two-year-old James Bulger was abducted, tortured and killed by schoolboys Jon Venables and Ian Thompson (both 10 years old at the time).
The whole country watched as the two boys were tried in an adult court and sentenced to just 10 years in separate secure childrens' homes.
Now, 20 years on, James's mother Denise Fergus still struggles every day with the tragic loss of her son, and the fact that one of his killers is living anonymously outside of prison, while the other may be parolled soon.