Mel B on being diagnosed with dyslexia at 42: 'I thought my brain was just wired differently. I felt very dumb'
MEL B REVEALS SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH DYSLEXIA AGED 42
In a very candid chat, guest Loose Woman Mel B revealed she was dignosed with dyslexia last year.
'I’ve got my book coming out, Brutally Honest, it was very painful [to write], I should say,' Mel said. 'So for me to be able to read it, I decided I’m not going to read the entire book [for the audio book] I’m going to hire someone who can read it better than I can.
'I was diagnosed with dyslexia last year. I find it very difficult to read sometimes and especially when I get emotional. So I auditioned a couple of ladies yesterday and I found the perfect lady.'
'That’s one of the reasons I’m doing it this way. I could only actually read three chapters at one time of my own book because I’m still going through the whole healing process,' she added. 'These ladies when they read it to me, I said, ‘God this is my story’. It’s very surreal. To hear it back to me, it was healing, very cathartic actually.'
On being diagnosed so late in life'All my life I’ve just thought maybe my brain was wired differently. That’s why I like the entertainment world and writing and singing and dancing, I opt for that kind of creativity. I kind of hid it but didn’t know what I was hiding. When I’d see words backwards, or I’d have to memorise a script over and over again or it’d take me five months to read one chapter of a book because I couldn’t compute it. To get diagnosed with that helped me really, I felt really relieved. All these years and now I know why I’ve struggled so much, especially at school. I was just seen as the naughty girl, when actually, I didn’t understand what they were writing on the blackboard and even maths was a nightmare. I felt very dumb, just thick. Everyone else could understand everything apart from me.'
On how she’s now working on the diagnosis'There’s tools that you can learn. Everybody has a different type of dyslexia. Mine comes in fits and starts. Colours on paper and writing helps me learn and understand better and then just talking about it too and not feeling so embarrassed and ashamed and taking a minute to go, "Ok, I’m having difficulty with this word, let me go over it over and over again."''Now I see it as a gift and a blessing but even now it’s kind of emotional to talk about because for so long I didn’t know what was going on with me. So now I do see it as, well this is why I have been the way I am, this is why I have been part of an amazing girl group and being able to cope with the pressure. I wish I would have known at school. School for me was traumatising as I didn’t really understand much at all.'
'I’ve been nervous talking about that, it’s overwhelming.'
Watch the video to see Mel talk about her experience of dyslexia