Chrissy Teigen apologises over online bullying controversy branding herself 'a troll'

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Chrissy Teigen has returned to social media and apologised for cyberbullying, calling herself "a troll".

The 35-year-old described old tweets that surfaced online as “awful, awful” and said she is “truly ashamed” of them.

The model and TV presenter has been silent on Twitter since TV personality Courtney Stodden accused her of bullying them a decade ago.

In a lengthy blog post, Teigen described the past month as “VERY humbling”.

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Teigen allegedly sent Stodden messages urging the model to kill themselves.

She apologised for those messages last month and stood down from a voiceover role on Netflix comedy Never Have I Ever.

In her latest apology, shared with her 13.5 million followers, Teigen said: "Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past".

Teigen, who is married to award-winning singer John Legend, wrote that she is in the process of contacting people she had targeted online.

She said: "There is simply no excuse for my past horrible tweets. My targets didn’t deserve them. No one does.

"Many of them needed empathy, kindness, understanding and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humour.

"I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry."

Teigen was also called out for a 2011 post mocking Lindsay Lohan’s issues with self-harming.

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Teigen was one of Twitter’s most prominent users, memorably clashing with Donald Trump during his presidency - he later blocked her and called her “filthy mouthed”.

In her Medium post, Teigen said she joined social media pile-ons to earn acceptance from strangers.

She said: "In reality, I was insecure, immature and in a world where I thought I needed to impress strangers to be accepted. If there was a pop culture pile-on, I took to Twitter to try to gain attention and show off what I at the time believed was a crude, clever, harmless quip. I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities.

"Now, confronted with some of the things that I said, I cringe to my core."

Teigen, a mother of two who was widely praised last year for sharing stark pictures from the loss of her pregnancy, said she is no longer the person who posted nasty social media messages.

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“I grew up, got therapy, got married, had kids, got more therapy, experienced loss and pain, got more therapy and experienced more life,” she added.

And she said she hopes her children – daughter Luna, five, and three-year-old son Miles – will “recognise my evolution”.

Teigen added: “My goal is to be so good that my kids will think this was all a fairy tale. Not the fake good. The good that has the best intentions, the good who wakes up wanting to make her friends, family, her team and fans as happy as possible.”

She later shared a picture of a new tattoo, explaining on Instagram that it is a butterfly drawn by Luna which she had tattooed on her arm.

In a long post she said: “Today our beautiful little pod celebrated their preschool graduation. I sobbed from beginning to end, breaking for laughter only when John’s much-anticipated-by-him commencement speech welcomed them to the workforce and listed the 5 p’s as pizza, peanut butter, petey, penny and parents. I sobbed because my god, what a year. But also, man. they’re SO young. Their eyes are gonna see so much.”

She added: “Luna drew this butterfly on me today and it seemed fitting to make permanent. I wanted @winterstone to move and centre it, due to issues I also discuss in therapy, but in the end we decided to leave it right where she belonged.

“A little imperfect, a little messy, but hell she’s here to stay. Lol. Love you all to bits, I really do. Even if you hate me, I can honestly say I do not hate you. I send you love. How annoying is that! You must be soooo annoyed!! Anyhoo, love you, love you, love you. Here’s to the messes in progress.”