Azeem Rafiq speaks to ITV News Calendar about his time at Yorkshire
Yorkshire intend to conduct a formal investigation into former cricketer Azeem Rafiq's accusation the club are "institutionally racist" after the former England Under-19 captain revealed the matter left him on the brink of taking his own life.
Rafiq had two stints at Headingley between 2008 and 2018, and after leading Yorkshire in a Twenty20 game against Durham in 2012, he became, aged 21, the youngest player to captain the county in a senior match.
He was released in 2018 for a second time and has walked away from cricket but in a startling interview with ESPNCricinfo, the former off-spinner said, as a Muslim, he was made to feel like an "outsider" at the county.
"I know how close I was to committing suicide during my time at Yorkshire. I was living my family's dream as a professional cricketer, but inside I was dying. I was dreading going to work. I was in pain every day.
"There were times I did things to try and fit in that, as a Muslim, I now look back on and regret. I'm not proud of it at all. But as soon as I stopped trying to fit in, I was an outsider.
In responding to the claim Yorkshire initially said Hanif Malik, a board member and chair of Yorkshire's Equality and Diversity Committee, had been in touch with their 29-year-old former player and would relay his findings.
The club went further on Thursday afternoon, saying the decision was made at the start of the week to launch an official investigation into the matter and they are in the process of finalising the structure of the review.
Yorkshire added they will be making contact with "impartial external parties...to ensure complete transparency".
Chairman Roger Hutton said: "Any allegation of this nature is hugely concerning to everyone from the board to the playing staff here, and we take the reports very seriously.
"As a player and former captain, Azeem was extremely highly respected and well regarded by the club and its supporters alike.
"We have tried to make contact with Azeem this week to discuss his experiences, and will make further contact in the weeks ahead as it's important that we hear his grievances in as much detail as possible.
"The future direction of our organisation's culture will be best-shaped with the understanding and the input of players, staff and supporters from all minorities and genders, and we will continue this process with the formal investigation that will start in a matter of days and be conducted thoroughly, impartially, and with urgency."
The claims of Rafiq, who moved to Barnsley in 2001 from Pakistan, come days after new England and Wales Cricket Board chairman Ian Watmore said it was "not acceptable" there was a lack of diversity on the organisation's board.
An ECB statement on Thursday read: "We are deeply troubled to hear of Azeem Rafiq's experiences and recognise the courage it has taken for him to speak out.
"The ECB welcomes Yorkshire County Cricket Club's commitment to thoroughly and urgently investigate this case and the wider review of club policies and culture. We will follow these closely and are in contact with the club and with Azeem. We will consider any further ECB steps which may be appropriate.
"Azeem's story is similar to some of the experiences we have heard about during the Black Lives Matter movement and demonstrates how much work is needed across the game, sport and society as a whole to eradicate racism.
Rafiq made his Yorkshire debut in a T20 in 2008 and delivered several standout performances in the sprint format before being released by the county in 2014.
He returned two years later and was awarded his county cap but was released again in 2018.
England white-ball captain Eoin Morgan was asked about Rafiq's claims ahead of Friday's T20 series opener against Australia.
The Irishman was one of several players from different backgrounds in the squad which triumphed at the 2019 World Cup.
"When I hear these stories I'm surprised to start with," Morgan said. "But also in light of these stories coming out the ECB have been active in trying to rectify and become more diverse and create equal opportunity for everybody.
"I think travelling around during last year's World Cup and going to 10 different grounds up and down the country and watching the supporters flood in of all different races, all following England, was great. It made us all feel extremely proud."