Alan Griffiths from Alcester in Warwickshire, was witness to a disaster that marked one of Britain's darkest days.
ITV News Central spoke to Alan as part of ITV's Britain Get Talking wellness campaign.
30 years ago, he was at the Leppings Lane entrance of the Hillsborough Stadium and was involved in the disaster in which 96 Liverpool fans died.
Alan has relived the horrors every day for 30 years, but could never talk about it.
He was working near Sheffield around the 30th anniversary of the tragedy in which he was so closely involved.
I wouldn't talk about it, I wouldn't get past the first couple of sentences, I got too upset. It wasn't something I'd ever discuss with my wife or my children. I'd just literally bottled it up, said nothing and people around me wouldn't know necessarily whatI was bottling up, but I realised I had a problem."
Now, with his cognitive behaviour therapist in Stratford-upon-Avon, Alan, is encouraging others living with similar issues in the county to take up a free NHS service called, #NowICan.
Alan says finally talking about what happened has turned his life around.
Hillsborough will always be a part of him, but now he knows there's much more to his life too and now he can just get on with it.