Video report by ITV News Meridian's James Davies
The mother of a man who disappeared from a small village in Berkshire nine months ago says she will never give up hope of finding her son.
Father-of-two Charles Knight, 30, was last seen at his mother's home in Burghclere, near Newbury, in February.
Next month will be the family's first Christmas without Charlie - a day they say they will not be celebrating until he returns home.
Belinda Hooper, Charlie Knight's mother said: "It really does eat away at you. You know, just always thinking, always looking, always searching. My heart is just shattered.
"We're all grieving but there will never be any closure until Charlie is found and that's hard to know that could be months, it could be years, you know.
"To not have any kind of joy or happiness you know you can't see light at the end of the tunnel at this moment in time."
The police scaled back their extensive search for Charlie in March, after combing the area for three weeks.
Before his disappearance Charlie had been suffering with depression and although there have been no credible sightings, Belinda is not giving up hope of finding her son.
Belinda said: "The family will never give up, we will keep searching, we will keep looking and following every possible avenue that we can.
"He had a funny laugh, a gorgeous smile. There are no words to explain how much I would love to see him again, we all would, his friends, his family, we all just would love to see him just to know that he's ok."
Belinda and Charlie share a birthday and while they were not together this year, Belinda marked the occasion with a special tattoo to make sure her son is always close in spirit.
She said: "He was born on my birthday and obviously we've missed a birthday this year and I went and had it done for us.
"Every year we always speak to each other and say happy birthday, happy birthday to you and that obviously didn't happen this year.
The family are appealing once again for anyone with any information about Charlie's disappearance to come forward.
Belinda said: "Please let us know - you know, give the children their Christmas wish to see their Dad again. Just to bring some peace into our lives - please, please let us know.
"Charlie, I feel your pain every day, every minute of every day - please we love you and we miss you and we want you to come home."
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