Kerry Needham has told ITV Calendar about the pain of being in the country and how she will not be attending the search of land near a farmhouse where Ben vanished 21 years ago.
She said: "I don't know what it is - just the place - it kills me inside. I couldn't go there last time so knowing what the police are doing up there now I don't think my emotions could take it, so no I'm not going."
Watch the full interview on ITV Calendar.
Sniffer dogs and diggers have arrived at a vacant plot on the Greek Island of Kos where police have launched a new search for Ben Needham.
British police searching for missing Ben Needham will start digging up an area close to where he went missing in Greece.